Fall

Fall is typically my favorite season. I've always looked more forward to Halloween than Christmas, even. This year, for reasons I don't even begin to understand, I'm not feeling it. At All.

Sometimes I'm not sure if things are catching up with me, if I'm getting depressed and not fully realizing it. Things that seemed like they'd be happening around now...aren't. I think I spent a good part of my summer looking forward to the changes Fall was going to bring. For a myriad of reasons, those changes aren't taking place now. Or maybe ever. It's hard to think about, the feelings and emotions surrounding it are all still too fresh, too raw.

So I try to focus on happier things. Spend more time playing with the spastic kitten. More time walking Ryder. Time looking back through things that remind me of happier periods of time.

Like photos from a camping trip we took with Ryder in late September.